your savior and live your life for him as he commands you to will land you in hell, so also will be your fate after rejecting the Holy Spirit when he calls out to you. You are flirting with the eternal fire of hell because you will not submit your life to the one whom gave it.
God is not a beggar. Don’t misconstrue his persistence and compassion as a sign of weakness; because one day when you suddenly feel a need to call on him, he might possibly not answer your request and you will be left with the realization that you are too late. You may be left in the wilderness to live out your life just the way you like it… alone and miserable without the Lord.
If you have a history of missing the blessings of life as promised by God, and are experiencing curses and difficulties, you might want to consider stepping down from off your steed and making an offering of your soul without demands or conditions. Be forewarned, your heart must be right and your offering genuine or it is useless to kneel before the altar and expect his acceptance. Not only will you miss the blessing of peace and joy, but your misery will out weigh your arrogance and ignorance.