In Love With The Lord

A Prayer for Love in Extreme

When we met we were standing at the beginning of a long and revealing journey designed to carry both of us beyond our present limitations and confines. There are swells of emotions for us to contend with, and so many personal battles we have waged and many won. I weep for those precious moments that changed a lifetime: that kissed and swayed a soul, a single tear that squelched a fire. I search for the key that frees the heart before it rips apart. You have always lived in my rushing blood, danced in my breath and hurled your loving self through my being. My love in the extremes, my passion and my pain - I must release it for it is killing me. I am not myself and yet I cannot set myself free. This pain is deep within my heart and it strangles me. I look into the mirror and break out crying, for I cannot explain it. I'm sorry this has overcome me. It must be the feelings and beliefs or lack of in myself. I feel insecure without you. I'm miserable and empty. I have seen your passion for me wither and die on the vine. I know I have reached the bottom of my heart when all the love I muster up is not as sweet as it is tart. Questions come like hungry dogs ripping through garbage bags looking for bits of anything to feed a starving truth, who only yesterday wore as strong as a new found genie from a bottle.